I started keeping a bullet journal in September 2019. A place for daily schedules and notes, thoughts and agendas, I chose a comfortable, black bound notebook and got quite used to using it. Thirty days they say, for something to become a habit.
Moving through this quarantine time, this time of quiet, of the world thrown on its ear, I’m trying to maintain those habits that make the days seem normal. I pull out my black book, running my hand over its smooth cover, sliding the elastic from its corners. The ribbon marks my last visit and the page falls open. Appointments, phone calls, random thoughts fill the paper, marked as to their completion or plans to reschedule. Leafing forward I stare at the pristine ivory paper, lined, calling to be filled.
Our days are different now and like many, I am home. Period. And the busy-ness of a normal life, like a distant echo, fades, replaced by a blank page. In an attempt to populate the day I pick up my pencil.
Read
Study German
Sew a bag for my doctor friend to carry her medical gear while at the hospital
Write emails to representatives: better and more equipment for health care workers
Calls to check up on friends and family
A walk
Adapting to a new pace took about a week though I’m not sure it’ll ever feel completely familiar. The biggest task was somehow convincing myself that it was ok to slow down, to find peace in the process. As a homebody, I’m ok with the aloneness. I am becoming comfortable with the elasticity of a wide open day and there is a delicate dance between creating a pattern for the days and embracing the complex fluidity of this time.
And bubbling up, in the quiet of the morning hour, is gratitude. For having a home to shelter in, for food in the pantry, for clean water from the tap, for a way to find some peace. My pencil hovers and then, is laid to rest.
I step into the day.
6 Responses
Thank you for sharing your thoughts as always. Staying connected is more important than ever now.
Be Well!
Thank you, Sharon ❤️ Hope you are well.
Thank you so much for the insight, indeed grateful. Grateful for four walls, enough food, rest, peace, family. Missing seeing them but know this too will pass. Thinking of you Margaret!
Thank you, Kathy ❤️
Margaret, I relate to this in so many ways, could have written it myself (if I had your gift with words). Thanks for sharing.
On Thu, Mar 26, 2020 at 9:49 AM margaret jankowski wrote:
> margaretjankowski posted: “I started keeping a bullet journal in September > 2019. A place for daily schedules and notes, thoughts and agendas, I chose > a comfortable, black bound notebook and got quite used to using it. Thirty > days they say, for something to become a habit. Moving t” >
Thanks Kris ❤️